Forgiveness is something you give… to yourself.
When driving an old beater, forgiveness is something you give… to yourself.
So, how much dead weight you going to toss from the truck?
and what are you going to give yourself before driving into the sunset?
“Some habits, energies and belief systems are just like people, with names and personalities, fragrances and looks.
And like people, sometimes you just got to move on.”
In this image, the character ‘X’Tzu’ is considering the amount of energy it took to kick the last passenger out of his truck!
“I used to kick passengers out of my truck, hollering, “Get the hell out, you’re no longer welcome in this ride”. But then it hit me, ‘The energy it took to kick ‘em out, the arguments that ensued, and the attachments which made them hold on while I dragged them down the street just wasn’t worth it.’”
Yep, I’ve left a trail of peel-outs, knocked over trashcans and twisted shopping cart devastation in relationships with myself and others. I’ve created life - then ushered in death, launched businesses with out-of-balance give n’ take, side-swiped others lives, caused roustabout trouble, and nurtured doubt, abandonment and betrayal. Yet, the inner and outer world has given me more forgiveness than I’ve ever expected.
“In arrogance, the ego shouted it was willing to bear the consequences while it shoved cause and effect - hoping they’d throw a punch, tripping caution and wondering if it would ever kick me in the cajones. Once in awhile they’d get up and fight, but mostly, it was others who felt the discomfort. All the while… the truck of my soul was broken down on the side of the road.”
Forgiveness lets you drop dead weight that doesn’t serve.
When I noticed I’d gone nowhere, and the battery appeared dead, I asked, ‘What could I do for giving my truck a jumpstart?’ I stood there in my oily overalls, leaning over the engine, taking an old toothbrush, cleaning the leads on the battery.
Forgiveness doesn’t ‘make it all better’, it’s ‘for giving’ it out of your body, to lower its vibe by its weight. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself. It’s ‘for giving’ energy the path to clear. For giving your own lifeforce the permission to continue to create. It ultimately isn’t anything you give to an institution, or dogma. Forgiveness is the most beautifully selfish act a dualistic entity can partake in. Be greedy in your forgiveness, self-centered and gluttonous with it.
“After quite a few years, they made contact with the cables.”
(((( VVVVVrooomm )))) the truck started!
“All I had to do was to clear the build up from the batteries so energy could flow. The interruption of current and blockage of circulation came from failing to give the soul-truck regular attention – for corrosion always occurs where elements are harsh.”
Forgiveness is an equation of presence, not to make something right or wrong. Forgiveness is the expression of self-love. Here, you can love so much that regardless of having forgave yourself or others, the combination compels one to act in powerful ways that aren’t usually associated by others as if you forgave anyone. That is the ‘burden’ and ‘challenge’ of the spiritually adept. They must do things that others condemn.
The concept of forgiveness can be easily twisted. The difference between real forgiveness and the faux-forgiveness broadcasted from many churches and meant to protect the unjustly rich and corrupt, is that real forgiveness allows you to go into singularity, and see that all rights and wrongs belong in the same family. True forgiveness also allows for taking back that which was lost… your presence.
“So now, instead of flooring it in the dirt, leaving mouths full of dust and gravel, I now step on the gas with respect, knowing how many times others could’ve sent a stream of rocks at my face – and didn’t. I also keep that battery brush handy for when others do peel out in my face.”
Forgiveness is not forgetting. It’s ‘for’ ‘giving’ you the openness to be whichever future person you decide. Forgiveness is an exercise in retaining CHOICE. Here in Playgroundia, vigilance is the name of the game. Along with forgiveness, these two make for a great merry-go-round of action as vigilance plummets and the requirement of self-forgiveness comes back into sight.
“When driving trucks, for-giveness isn’t about for-getting or making it all ‘better’, it’s for giving choice it’s due; by lowering the vibe of corrosion, filthy cloths and hauled trash. It’s for giving opportunity where we can be something new. It’s all about being present. Without it, the manifestation of wind in your hair, the smell of engine oil, a few bucks in your pocket, and the twin flame relationship you want sitting next to you on the bench seat is less likely to happen. In the Twin Inferno state, forgiveness clears the space and serves so that two can sit. Anger and disdain are attachments, good to use as temporary tools, and better to put down after their short use.”
Forgiveness is something you give ‘to others’, and ‘yourself’. It is a state of transparency, non-reaction, non-perpetuation of an energy (of an action, thought, desire).
Forgiveness is the ultimate act of ‘ending’ an act of duality. It breaks the fractal, then rearranges it according to the watercourse way. It is the pinnacle of sovereignty. It is the real time - in the present - acid that takes a vibration and silences it for-ever. It removes the sun and moon, steps outside time, and shows ‘choice’ to be the ultimate decider that deletes the resonances of those imaginations and directions you don’t consent.
DECLARATIONS
I am worthy, and know why I do the things i do, have done, and must do. I am forgiving of my condition, keeping in proper perspective that which is due to my will, and that which is due to others.
I now clear the energy of my battery, take out past trash, and wash my clothes of the soiled energy in permanent press. I’m not concerned with right or wrong, but new possibilities. I remember transgressions – keeping them to know where I’ve been. I don’t ask my soul to forget, nor request others to do the same. I damn well expect they don’t, and shouldn’t. Declaring ‘I’m no victim’, I separate the energy of the event, focusing on what I do want, and respecting what I don’t. I break the rearview mirror of how others just like me, treated me, including myself.
A FEW QUESTIONS
So, what dead weight are you going to toss from the bed of your truck?
And today, what are you going to give yourself before you drive into the sunset?
SUGGESTION TO MAKE SPACE FOR YOUR PRESENCE
Just for a moment, think of ALL the people. and even pets, you wish to be forgiven by, and all the ones you know it’s time to forgive.
Why?
Because you can. You have choice. Use it.
(And doing so makes room for Receiving: More Joy More Love More Yes More Worth More Amazing. More YES.)